Along with all this excitement I do still have my fears but every day I wake up and hand those fears to God praying that this time it for real. This time I am trusting Him and giving all my fears to Him and not just handing them to Him until night fall and starting all over again in the morning. This morning I stood strong in my faith. Woke up and pronounced my fears and felt them slip away. I’m holding on to hope and releasing the hurt. What happened before will not happen again. With every physical hardship, ache and pain all I can do is smile and be grateful because I know butterflies shortly follow.